With it being National Infertility Awareness Week, I've stumbled on some AMAZING blogs. Today I was reading Lauren's blog, let me tell you...It hit home! In her post, well....Let me just quote what she says..
"Can you imagine living month after month after month on an emotional
roller coaster… hope, expectation, anticipation, and crushed dreams yet
Can you imagine wondering if there is something wrong with you?
Can you imagine finally seeing a little plus sign after so many negatives… only to have your child die within your womb?
Can you imagine leaving the maternity ward of the hospital with empty arms and an empty womb?
Can you imagine riding the roller coaster of “trying” again while also riding the tidal wave of grief?
Can you imagine each month taunting you and making you feel like a failure?
Can you imagine another purple plus followed by another loss?
Can you imagine enduring invasive, embarrassing, painful, and intrusive procedures all in an effort to figure out what’s wrong?
Can you imagine having to plan your trips to the store carefully so there’s no chance you have to walk by the baby section?
Can you imagine seeing rounded happy bellies every where you turn and feeling a physical ache inside?
Can you imagine receiving a phone call just two days before Christmas
telling you and your husband that you will never bear children?
Can you imagine having to celebrate the holidays that year?
Can you imagine finally packing up your maternity clothes to donate, knowing you’ll never need them, sobbing all the while?
Can you imagine having friends announce their first, second, and third pregnancies all while you still wait?
Can you imagine missing someone you’ve never even met?
Can you imagine your best friend surprising you with her pregnancy
announcement, then going to your car and weeping… and feeling guilty
because you did?
Can you imagine listening to mothers complain about their duties while you sit with empty arms and a broken heart?
Can you imagine being asked constantly, “why don’t you have kids yet?” and forwarding the question straight to heaven? Yes, why God?
Can you imagine always feeling a little left out, a little on the outside looking in, a little not part of the club?
Can you imagine losing hope, giving up, and almost losing faith?
Can you imagine God piecing your broken heart back together in a way that never quite beats the same way again?
Can you imagine the bravery, the courage, the strength, and the trust
that it takes to throw out your plans – to give up your dreams – to
turn a new way and write a new story?
Can you imagine always feeling just a little bit broken… and that never really going away?"
Yea, it's tough and it's heartbreaking.... Can YOU imagine?!
Again, I encourage you to share my blog, get the word out, support us and share our fight...
Sunday, April 21, 2013
Today kicks off Infertility Awareness Week.
To some it is just another week, to others this is your week to get the word out..
To some it is just another week, to others this is your week to get the word out..
Did you know that Infertility is a disease or condition of the reproductive system often diagnosed in 1 out of 8 people?
Did you know insurance coverage for infertility is only available in 15 out of 50 states in America. Many lawmakers believe that including fertility treatments would raise the cost of insurance for everyone, when in fact, paying for fertility treatments may actually save money. When fertility treatment is not covered by insurance, couples may choose treatments that have a higher risk of triplets and other high-order multiples. IUI for example, is cheaper than IVF, but comes with a higher risk of multiples.
Also, because IVF is expensive for couples, when insurance does not cover treatment, patients and doctors are more likely to transfer more embryos per cycle than they should. They do so in hopes of having success quickly, despite
the higher risk of multiples. With single embryo transfer, many IVF patients can get pregnant with one baby at a time. However, because it may take a few cycles to achieve success, families are often unable or unwilling to give it a try when they are paying out of pocket.
I wish our lawmakers could see MY infertility bills and what we paid for 4 IVF cycles, which, by the way, are NOT refundable if IVF works on the 1st try. Oh, and that does NOT include the injections, which are also paid for out of pocket!!! )-:
Sunday, April 14, 2013
Finally! We have arrived! Hello 2nd trimester!! It's hard to believe that we are finally in a much more "safe zone" now. Another check off the ol' list.
These pictures make my day! (-:
Speaking of another check off of the list...shots! After 77 days of big ol needles in the booty, Holly finished her progesterone shots on Thursday. At this point the placenta should be fully functioning on its own and keeping the baby healthy. Another big step! Can you tell Holly was pretty excited to be DONE?!
We have 9 more days until our gender scan. Ohhh, we are so excited!!
The other day I was going through our guest closet and sorting all my photography props and whatnot. I came across this...
A baby blanket my Grandma made me for right after we got married..almost 6 years ago. I've never been a huge fan of crochet/knitted items but my Grandma was AMAZING at crocheting these baby blankets. All the children, Grandchildren and even Great Grandchildren were given them. Shortly before my Grandpa passed away my Grandma had to quit crocheting because of the arthritis in her hands. A few years later she moved in with my parents and I saw her often. The day I found out that one of my good friends was having twin girls I knew I had to attempt to convince my Grams to make matching blankets for the little ladies that were on their way. Sure enough, Grams picked back up her crochet needles and 2 beautiful purple and white blankets were whipped up and ready for new babies to be cuddled in! She swore that those blankets saved her life. From then on she was always sitting in her chair, humming and crocheting away. Although our baby won't get a picture with it's Great Grandma, it will forever have this blanket that was made especially for him/her.
Monday, April 8, 2013
I cannot believe that we are 12 whole weeks along!! 12 weeks!! Almost through the 1st trimester! Almost 1/3 of the way through this pregnancy! Obviously I will never forget the day Holly sent me that picture of the first positive pregnancy test. Although it seems like it was just yesterday, some days feel like it was forevvvver ago. I know there is a ways to go but every week is a milestone in my eyes. One step closer to D-day!
Look at that growing bump!!!
********Special Thanks to my Momma for taking her measuring tape to the store to measure the fruit out(LOL) and getting it to Holly!!
Only 15 more days until our gender ultrasound. Ohhh my fingers are crossed so hard with the hopes that we will be able to see what Baby L is!
We have some pretty awesome people in our life. People that have cheered us on this whole time, been our shoulder to cry on when needed and always lending words of hope and encouragement in times of need. Last week we got the cutest little gift from a friend of ours.
Babies first Christmas outfit! If you know my family, you'll know my parents own a U-cut Christmas tree farm that has been in our family for close to 30 years. Between Thanksgiving and Christmas working the farm on the weekends is all my family and I know. Such a fitting outfit and I can't wait to see it on Baby L! Thanks again, Melissa!
The other day I was having just a crappy day. We came home from being out running around and I noticed a package on our doorstep. Thinking it was the bedding I ordered that I've been waiting for, I noticed the box was a bit small for that. I realized it said it was from Holly. Hmmm, what is she up too? I opened it up and found this...
Oh my! I love it! I may or may not have had a little tear in my eye. Thanks again, Holly!!
Speaking of Holly, she is still doing great. Rarely has nausea and has her energy back. Although, the last few days might have been a bit more tiresome for her. Why you ask? She's a new Auntie to identical twin girls!! Holly stayed with her brother and soon to be sis in law at the hospital all night when they first started the induction and got only about an hour or so worth of sleep. 48 hours later Momma was taken back for a C-section but all is well and the little ladies are so stinking ADORABLE!
Congrats again to Saray and Garren!!