Appointments, appointments and then some

It seems like every week there are new things coming up, more appointments being made and more money to be spent. It's all getting to be really stressful for me. It's always on my mind, I have a gazillion things constantly on my mind as of lately. Currently, I am trying to keep my excitement on the side line. I know a little part of me is letting the excitement slip out but for the most part I am trying to keep it on the sideline.

After today keeping my excitement on the sidelines is a bit harder. Holly is now to the point in her cycle that she can start the mock cycle. Tomorrow She starts on a pill called Estrace, which helps thicken her lining. She will take these pills for about 2 weeks and then will go in on the 6th to have her lining checked, a saline sonogram of her uterus done and blood for the FDA screenings. Then, on the 8th Holly will go in for her psych test. So, right now Miss Holly is scheduled out for the 30th of October with the MFM doc, the 6th with Dr.P and then 8th with the psychologist. Along with all these appointments, myself, my hubby and my brother all have to also get out FDA screenings done. Mine is scheduled for the 8th and hopefully Randy can go in with me at the same time to get his out of the way along with Erik too. At first it was weird to me that we all needed to do the screening but since Holly is my brothers wife, it makes sense that all partners need to be screened.

Earlier today I was sitting and calculating everything that goes into this whole process. I just don't understand how any of these places can even feel right about the amounts that they charge. It truly is outrageous! Just an initial 35 minute appointment with Dr.P is $450. That's all out of pocket because lovely health insurance doesn't cover ANYTHING before the GC is preggo. I was reading something the other day that said your average cost ivf with a GC can run upwards of 40 thousand dollars!! Although I could never put a price on a child...it is a bit insane! And, to think that going through an agency is upwards of 80k! Hard to believe that the only thing more an agency would have done for us is finding us a GC. So 40-ish more thousand dollars just to find us a match. What.the.hell! So glad to have a willing family member help us make our dreams come true.... lord knows 80k is not in our budget. Lets just hope that all the meds work well and on the first try! For the both of us the doc estimates those suckers to be about 10 thousand dollars!! Ugh!

With that being said, I think I'm gona have a car wash to raise money. I'll make signs... "Donate to the WE WANT A BABY FUND & THIS INFERTILE WOMAN WILL WASH YOUR CAR!!!" Lol!!!! KIDDING!